Before I post much more, I had a bit of an epiphany about blogging vs journaling.
Like everyone, I have many thoughts about many things. Some things are personal, some things just about every day life. And, like many, I’d like to share them with my internet friends. It’s pretty much the only way we have of connecting. Alachia (LOVE her!) talks about life-sharing and I love that idea. So I think I’ve decided I’m going to try to do that with this blog.
Perhaps people will start to learn more about me and maybe they’ll like who I am, or maybe they will learn too much & not like me at all. I have to be ok with that, even though my self esteem doesn’t want to let me, lol. I think it will be good for me, plus I adore you guys who read this, so maybe it will be a good thing over all. I’m finding it a bit hard though. Weird, huh? All that brings me to the meat of this particular posting.
What does blogging vs journaling mean to me? As I said, Alachia hit the nail on the head for me when she mentioned life sharing. That is what blogging means for me, and what I want to do with mine. Whereas journaling is more private and not-meant-to-be-shared. Like if I was super ticked at my son (I am) and the only way to let some of it go was to write it all out, that would be for a journal. I don’t need to share about how angry I am (except in a vague “I’m angry at my son” kind of way), especially since it will likely go away (eventually, lol) and I don’t need that constant reminder, and I especially wouldn’t want him to ever read a posting of mine where I vented about how angry I was and listed all the gory details. Imagine him reading something like that after I was gone? (I read a story about that once, it made me re-think how I journaled). Plus on the internet, everything is permanent. You can find messages I wrote to newsgroups (who remembers Usenet? Lol) from the 90’s! So, much like the careful person I am, I really feel the need to be careful in my life sharing.
Which brings me to a bit of a conundrum. What’s the point of life sharing if you aren’t going to talk about the difficult topics? I don’t want my blog to be so watered down that it’s meaningless. So I will strive to find a happy medium. Hopefully my friends can stick it out with me and not get too bored while I figure it out 
(Is that passive-aggressive enough to guilt you all into keeping on reading? Rofl) But honestly, I do have stuff to say, and some of it fairly deep (I think anyways) and I dont think too much will be lost in translation. Just a bit of figuring out for a few postings I think. 
Really what started this whole thought-process is going to be the subject of my next post (or perhaps the one after that, I have an idea to write before that that would make a good segue to what I want to say). It could offend some folks and it hurts me to think that they could be offended. But my awesome & amazing twitter friends have given me amazing advice and so I’m going to take it and post it anyways. With a few modifications, just to be clearer about what I mean. I won’t water it down, but I do want to be clear. Less venty, more bloggy kind of clear, lol.
So /hugs and thank you for following my meandering brain.
Lisa
